2020 has come to an end. For most people, it is with a sigh of relief and a good riddance, as they hope for a better 2021. 2020 was a year like no other. It seemed liked it was one crazy thing after another, one sad terrible moment after another. I have heard and read about stories when horrible things happened; I never thought I would be witness to some of them.
Bishop T.D Jakes in his New Year sermon said something in the lines of 2021 would not be here if there had not been 2020. Until we appreciate the magnitude of the past year, we can’t fully embrace the present one. For us to get where we are going, we need to pass certain places. They will teach us and make us better and stronger only if we pay close attention.
2020 has had lots of sad moments, our hearts have been broken over and over again by what has been happening world over; I am moved they are still able to beat. I have also learnt a number of lessons that I hope to carry into 2021.
I have learnt to be kinder to myself. The fact that I will go out of my way to do things for people doesn’t mean that the will do the same for me. I have to stop finding excuses for them. People do what they want to do. Someone wants out of my life, I let them go; fights that won’t serve me, I will not participate in those. I should know my limits, do the best that I can and pride in the fact that I did. I have to constantly remind myself that I can only take enough.
It is absolutely okay to fail and fall. As long as you remember to pick yourself up; it doesn’t matter how many times. I like to win; not just sometimes but all the times. Experience and time has taught me that there will be times when I won’t win; there will be times when I will fall short and not measure up. It doesn’t mean that I am a failure. I am teaching myself to appreciate those moments even more; to evaluate myself and learn as much as I can. Those are the moments that have grown me and made me a better person. I don’t want to take them for granted any more.
Beginning again is a beautiful place to be. I decided to quit my job and pursue something that I have always wanted to. It was a huge risk that I was taking; I was scared and filled with lots of uncertainties. Thank God for His grace. So many months down the road, I am glad I did. It hasn’t been easy, but it has been a wonderful place of self-discovery, learning and growing.
I can only do so much. Nothing breaks my heart like not being able to help someone who needs my help. I have always put it upon myself to be of help anyone needs help. But I have also come to learn that I can only do so much. I am learning not to feel guilty when I am not able to help.
I don’t have everything figured out and it is okay not to have all the answers. This has been quite a hard one for me because I like having everything in place and order. I like to know what I will be doing and when.
Some issues are better left in 2020. I don’t have to carry every tiny detail of what happened to me in 2020 into 2021. I am having moments when I tell myself that is a 2020 issue; I am not dragging it into 2021. Not everything deserves my attention. And yes, I am renewing my membership to the Mind Your Business Club.
I don’t have to write ten thousand words to make a good article. While I am so ambitious to increase the words I write for each article, a long article is not what makes a great one. I am learning to appreciate anything that I pen down, because honestly there are times when the screen or book and I simply stare at each other. I have to pat myself on the shoulder each time I am able to put something on paper and share it with the world when I think I should.
This year, may he (God) give you what your heart desires, and may he fulfill all your plans. Psalm 20:4
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